I haven't updated this site in what feels to me like a very long time. At least not what I would call 'update' in terms of actually adding new content.
Back in September I thought about putting up a review of Grand Theft Auto V, but I benched that and, nearly three months later, I decided to scrap because there's really just no point.
I'm constantly editing or deleting old posts, and I find the biggest problem with me, and the idea of anything of mine being in public domain, is that my personality and opinions change drastically within only a six to twelve month period.
If I write something now, thinking it's a great thing and I totally agree with it, I can bet in twelve months time I'll look back on it and either laugh at how ridiculously poor the writing style is, or how ridiculously misinformed my opinion was, or how ridiculously amateur the entire post was. I do this constantly: I used to bag out electronic music, now it's one of my favourite genres; I used to love metal, then I went into a state of absolutely loathing it, and now I just don't care for it; I used to be a heartland racist, and now I have the biggest white person guilt complex of anyone living in an established first world nation.
I've been wondering what I'm going to do with this. Considering I'm not famous, no-one actually really genuinely cares about my opinions, and this site is so very barely visited by anyone who isn't me, I suppose I could just post inane ramblings and scribble and leave it at that. The funny thing though is because it's my sort of work space, I do want to take some sort of pride in it. I've debated deleting the entire blog with myself for a few weeks now, thinking over a few of the posts which I had made in the past and have now either deleted, or completely reworded, and just feeling some sort of embarrassment or shame in the writing and opinions.
Because I'm not famous I suppose, again, it doesn't matter. I want to see something through to its end. I don't want to be in a constant state of drifting between things (activities, hobbies, relationships, etc.).
So I guess this is an update to myself, because that's all a blog really is for someone who isn't famous; a personal monologue which can be seen by anyone, but probably won't be.
Update.
